Socializing - I've started attending some of the Mom's Night Outs w/ a local group of moms. We meet once a month at a nice restaurant (or last time it was a delicious wine-tasting!) and just enjoy eachother's company, the fact that we're out and away from the norm at home, etc.
Depression - I've come to the conclusion, (& this wasn't easy) that I've been fighting the reality that I have depression. I've convinced myself for the past 10 years that it's not a permanent thing, it's only temporary, but it's to a point, that I realize, I need something to help me out. I've been in therapy since last summer, and my therapist recomended that I contact my doctor, which I have, and have started something called Sarafam (?) which is actually Paxil. So far, I feel even-keeled. We'll see if this helps me with my mood swings, etc. I seriously think that a large number of things going on in my life have mounted up and finally avalanched.
Exercise - I've been seeing a personal trainer twice a week for over 2 years now. I finally stopped. I'm eating like a pig, which counteracts what good I'm doing at the gym. Right now, I'm taking spin class every Weds at 12:15, and now an RPM class every Thurs at 12:15. Friday, I'm going jogging during lunch w/ my friend Pam (from work) in Newcastle. I've also started going to fit-camp on Mondays & Thursdays after work, over at Newcastle Commons. It's gorgeous over there, and when I get there earlier then everyone else, I go for a jog around the drive loop. I've come to realize that I really like/enjoy jogging. Who would have guessed? I think it helps me to clear my (very cluttered) head, and seeing the beautiful New England view isn't bad either!!
Work - I've lost my umph. I come in every single day, same old boring thing. It doesn't help that it's been slow too. Don't get me wrong, I love my job, I love my company, I even love our location, I just can't get motivated.
Sleep - I can't sleep through the night. Either Tommy will wake up sounding scared and crying for me, so I go in and comfort him, or, I'll just randomly wake up at 2 or 3 in the morning and lie there, solving all the worlds problems for an hour or two, then wake up feeling like I never slept at all. This is every single night. Sucks!
Our house - we're going forward with the construction. We're adding on 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms to make our home a little larger and to stay in our neighborhood. Right now, picking out all the crazy random details and that's fun and at the same time, horrifying! -What if I pick out some obnoxiously odd mix of colors and details and woods and lighting and windows and shingles and etc etc etc?!?!
Tommy - He's adorable. He's cuddly. It's taken over 2 years to get to this point. He usually would try to shy away if I dared hold him too close. He still wiggles around in any pictures of the two of us (well documented!) But I just love him. He completes me. He is the sweetest little blonde haired, blue-eyed child on this earth. He melts my heart when he tells me, "oooh, thank you Mommy!"
Victoria - She started working at the Polo Outlet earlier this year. She loves making her own money, and not having to beg me for something. She's so responsible. She also volunteers at the hospital as a candy striper. That's working out pretty well. The volunteer coordinator loves her. She has her top 6 list of colleges: UNH, Univ of Miami!!!, Univ of Virginia, Boston College, Elon, and Emory. College applications start this fall, during her Senior year of HS. Hard to believe that my beautiful lucious ivory white skinned, strawberry blonde haired china doll is growing up. Breaks my heart too. But it's also re-assuring tos ee how independent she is.
Steve - we have our ups and downs, but overall, he's really trying to make me happy which isn't very easy these days! On our 5th year anniversary, July 9th, we put an offer in on a house that I really really really loved, even though it wasn't a very logical decision (our house wasn't even on the market), and in a fortunate turn of events, the seller accepted another bid that was given to him just before ours.... The home had waterfront views of the Oyster River and was my dream house. Oh well....we're going to turn our house into a dream house in the next few months, I can't wait!
Princess - my sweet beloved little beagle girl. She's doing real well. She's been in chemo since her diagnosis in March. She's now going every 6 weeks. It kills me to know that she'll eventually leave us, but comforting to know that we're still making memories with her. She's Tommy's "Tee-tee". Not sure why he calls her that, but I guess it's easier then saying Princess.
Daisy - still in charge of all our house animals (Princess). She loves to be petted, and will drool all over you if you're scratching her back while she stretches out her body so you can keep scratching her. She's 15 years old and like a kitten.
LJ&W - Doing good as always. They have such a love for Tominator. They are such good big brothers and he adores them right back. J has been living with us since last September. He is doing really well at our house and I think it was a good decision, as he respects Steves authority. He tried to push things with me a month or two ago, but as Steve told me, stay firm, don't back down and let him know that I won't be walked on. That was it. All it took, thank God!! I was seriously worried for a short while.
